Open up your plans and damn, you're free.

Sunday, March 27, 2011

So yeah the crap ended a few weeks back, and here I am, totally wasting my life off. I may seem very okay with life right now, but what the heck, I am not so satisfied with things as they are coming right now. Heck, here I am, wasting money via drinking and smoking, things I don't normally do. I'm actually surprised that I'm doing these things, I used to be an advocate of clean living.

But who cares?

I'm totally fine with the idea that I'll grow old alone, and I think that would be better, so that I can look after my mom, just like what my favorite teacher in HS is doing in her life.

I'm currently listening to catchy tunes to keep the bad vibes away. Things aren't smooth sailing right now, but there's still that glimpse of hope in my head that someday, everything would be okay. I'm a sucker for optimism, but after these catastrophes happened, I suddenly had this 180-degree turnaround and all of a sudden, here comes a brand new Juliann, a pessimistic-laced one.

Maybe that's the reason why I resorted to vices.

But cut the crap. I know what I'm doing is wrong. Someday I will find the courage to stop these shits.

Dance tunes should carry on in my phone and keep on spinning until I return to the old me. The Juliann whose laugh is infectious, whose smile can light up a dark room.

My planner is still colorful, though.

I want to be better. Time would be my best friend. I'm now discovering who my true friends are.

Miss Cranky Pants told the world @ 9:10 PM☎